The Bible teaches us clearly that the power of sin is guilt. It also teaches us that Jesus died to take a way this power of sin making guilt a meaningless term in regards to past sin. What happens however is that people are taught that Jesus died for our sin, without qualifying what this actually means. The memory of things remain, but the power of it over one's life has been totally removed.

The Bible teaches that, "For lack of knowledge my people perish." This was the problem of Adam and Eve and often the problem that confronts us today in situations like this as well as other situations. By this I mean understanding that there are only two chairs in the universe as Francis Schaeffer put it that any person can sit in. God has forgiven you which means He has removed the guilt totally in His Son Jesus. Either He has, or He hasn't; that is the question here.

In your case however, the moral responsibility has been taken away through the cross of Jesus our sacrificial Lamb.

Finally, the babies' are with Jesus already, and you can have certainty of knowledge about this. Being a Christian and having been through this, I'm sure you understand the moral dilemma of the many Australia woman who feel the same moral tension, separated from knowledge of God. My wife and I have 12 children and we know how you feel. we have helped may non-Christian girls with their difficulties, because we know that they carry guilt mentally and physically in the sense they have all felt like they became mums without a baby.

God Bless you richly for your great courage.